The Invitation

My friend passed on a poem today that beautifully expresses where I feel like I am in life. Admittedly, I'm a little obsessed with exploring my artistic identity (anyone who talks to me for 2 minutes will quickly realize this!), and this poem speaks to that obsession.

But to my defense, and this point may only make sense to those who have had the same experience, I've been so taken by exploring my identity as an artist because I felt lost before realizing that I love to create and inspire. I feel like a shadow stepping into human flesh for the first time. It's like I'm discovering what it means to be really human and alive for the first time.

So pardon my obsession, and you can feel free to tease me every now and then about my melodramatic, artsy ways;-)...only don't tease too much; you know we artists are sensitive;-).

"The Invitation" by Oriah

It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.
It doesn’t interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool
for love, for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon…
I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened by life’s betrayals
or have become shriveled and closed
from fear of further pain.
I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own
without moving to hide it, or fade it, or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic
to remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true.
I want to know if you can disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day. And if you can source your own life from its presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon, “Yes!”

It doesn’t interest me
to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.
It doesn’t interest me who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire with me
and not shrink back.

It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom
you have studied. I want to know what sustains you
from the inside when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone with yourself
and if you truly like the company you keep
in the empty moments.

For the Artists/Creatives

Recently stumbled upon this blog by Favianna Rodriguez, a graphic artist and activist based out of Oakland, CA.

She has some great thoughts and advice for artists wanting to get disciplined about making strides in their craft.

Faithful Love (Part I)

This is an obligatory post in homage to Valentine's Day. I actually had another idea for a post that I was going to write about, then realized I should be timely and throw some kind of nod to V-day.

I partly didn't want to do a V-day post because I wanted to avoid sounding like a single, lonely, churchy girl throwing out cliches about how even though I'm single, God loves me. But I realized there's nothing cliche about Divine love, so hey some might label me a "single, lonely, churchy girl," but I'll take it because I know I'm loved:-).

So there's no romantic love to celebrate in my life, but I'm grateful to celebrate faithful love. Love revealed to me in the kindness of friends and strangers. Evidenced through the healing of deepest pain. Given by the ones who gave me life. Staring back at me from the mirror and defined by the One more faithful than faith.

Faithful Love Playlist

Here are 10 songs celebrating faithful love. So if you don't feel like rockin' out to mushy love songs or bitter anti-love songs, check out these:-) :

1. "Healed" Nichole Nordeman

We stutter and we stammer till You save us
A symphony of chaos till You play us...

Amazing lyrics. A beautiful song for broken hearts.

2. "Hold Me Now" Jennifer Knapp

Point your finger and laugh if you choose

To say my beloved is borrowed and used

She's strong enough to stand in my love...

I couldn't find this song anywhere online, but it's by one of my favorite artists. Another reminder of perfect love in the midst of our brokeness.

3. "Private Party" India.Arie

I’m having a private party
Ain’t no body here but me, my angels, and my guitar singin’

baby look how far we’ve come
I’m havin’ a private party
Learning how to love me
Celebrating the woman I’ve become...

One of the most profound lessons I continue to learn is how to love myself, even in the moments when it feels hardest to do so.

4. "Back to Life" Corneille

You loved me back to life
You loved me back to life
Your love’s that powerful

I associate this song and the next one together because I combined them and made a little "Love Medley." Corneille's singing about another human, but his words describe the way God has been a mighty, loving grip holding me together when I'm falling apart.

5. "Love Like This" Natasha Bedingfield

All my memories, they've got you in them

No use climbin' trees with no leaves in them

All my broken dreams you fixed...

Again a song about human love that aptly describes the way God hasn't exactly fixed my broken dreams, but has given me new ones through His love.

6. "Kind and Generous" Natalie Merchant

You've been so kind and generous

I don't know how you keep on giving
For your kindness I'm in debt to you
And I never could have come this far without you
For everything you've done, you know I'm bound

I'm bound to thank you for it....

Dedicated to all the friends, mentors and community that have shown me kindness along my journey.

7. "Your Joy" Chrisette Michele

No one loves me just like you do
No one knows me just like you do
No one can compare to the way my eyes fit in yours
You'll always be my father
And I'll always be your joy

I'm incredibly blessed to have a father who loves and cherishes me. He has never ceased to support and believe in me.

8. "Living Prayer" Alison Krauss

In Your love I find relief,
A haven from my unbelief.
Take my life and let me be
A living prayer, my God, to Thee...

Not much I can add to the words of Alison Krauss

9. "None But Jesus" Brooke Fraser/Hillsong United

When You call I won't refuse

Each new day again I'll choose...

This is the song I always play when I feel jacked up and far from God. Somewhere within it I feel God come close, even when I feel unlovable.

10. "Faithful to Me" Jennifer Knapp

I have cast my lots, dropped my guard, searched aimlessly,
for faith to be faithful to me
Through another day, another trial,
Another chance to reconcile
To One who sees past all I've seen,
and reaching out my weary hand,
I pray that you'd understand,
You're the only one who's faithful to me...

Ending aptly with another beautiful song by Ms. Knapp that says it all.